Trying to Fall

2020 was messy 

but I never thought messy is not beautiful

however,

messy bring me to a lot of interesting things


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2020 brought me to fun zone.
Where I don't have to worrying about being failed, mostly because the world and the system human build is already failed. I mean the economy mostly not good, a lot of people bankrupt, and lot more failure story that would make this article just being so gloomy. 

Ever been know that for most of person that ever get medals, award, or success, some of they might feel afraid to fail. I was the person on there and I ever thought to stop compete in research competition one of the reason is because 'how if I would fail? It wouldn't sounds good for everyone, if the person who ever won the similar things in the past is failed to win again'. But 2020 thought me something.

I am in my home (due to my laziness and government advices).
And everybody who might think like that is not around me physically.
So why should I care?

So I learn to fail,
I joining my friends to plan a business, which I have been afraid before (I don't think I would fit to business world before). But turns out it is fun. Fun how I learn new things, have a discussion with my friends to build something I never been thought before, and joining competition that I failed. And it is just fun. I don't think much if I failed for several times, because there is a lot more things in front of me that so challenging.

I challenge myself to joining google club in my university, after that I surprised that the competition to get in is so big and I don't know why I get in but so far its fun. I challenge myself to fail, to try, to admit that I was so stupid and newbie in programming world. At the first time, actually its so pressuring because I thought I won't be like the other people expect to me and I was afraid that I just gonna be an obstacle in my team. But by the time, its not good to think like that, because all I can do is just try and try. Whatever people expect to me, I just want to have fun and try and fail.

And I hope somewhere in the future, I try and success.

However,
have a nice beginning of this new year, gaes.


Regards,
Kay




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